*SOUND ON* “I was 14 when I first said “I love you” to another person and like any other 14-year old I believed that – THIS WAS IT! Forever wala love! I genuinely thought I was done looking for love. And then, the most obvious twist came along: a year later, I fell in love with someone else.
It was weird to have this new feeling of still being in love but the person it was meant for had changed. I felt horrible when I broke up with my first girlfriend. It has been over 15 years and I still feel bad about it. And every time after that whenever I’ve been on the receiving end of a breakup, I accept it immediately as if it’s some sort of penance for breaking up with my ‘first love’. What I still remember from that first experience of falling out of love is this feeling of self-betrayal.
It took me a couple years to fully accept the layers of personality I took on with every year of my life and with every relationship. In college I told a girl I loved her a week after we broke up. This was bad timing on my part. But she did not feel the same way. Infact, I was the one who said ‘I need a break’ which immediately led to a breakup the week before this love confession. So I guess the takeaway here was – If you love someone, SAY IT!
I was always into writing and reading love stories. In fact, one of my favorite love story happens to be that of my doting parents. They met in college and they have been together for about 40 years. I believe in love because I see all of that every day in my home. If it wasn’t for their love for each other, I wouldn’t be writing love stories.
While writing my first novel, I was listening to old Bollywood songs and came across a song titled “Tumne Kisi Se Kabhi Pyaar Kiya Hai?” from the movie Dharmatma (1975). And it struck me – What if someone asked me this question? How would I respond? I switched on my tape recorder to record this answer. An hour later I had written and recorded an entire episode of my podcast. This podcast on @jiosaavnpodcasts is quite special for me. It had a lot of work behind it! I absolutely loved writing the characters from scratch and crafting its own new story.” said Lakshya Datta