‘I’ve been suffering from depression since I was 5. I’ve always been emotionally imbalanced growing up. My parents were busy working hard to make the ends meet. I never had a anyone close to fall back on other than my parents.
It wasn’t really easy so I started working at the age of 16 as a translator in an NGO. But I felt tha I wasn’t happy. I would just travel randomly to destress myself talk and laugh with random strangers. I soon got relocated to Hyderabad and then to Mumbai. My mental health was deteriorating and I didn’t realise that I was suffering from acute depression. People would only see my happy face but from inside I was fighting to survive another day.
At the age of 21, while traveling I met someone who knew how depression looked it, understood my situation and I couldn’t be more grateful than meeting someone who was aware of what I was going through. He himself was going over a rough patch and I thought I could help him out well but I put myself in a bigger pit.
Empathy turned out to be love while there was no scope of future as he was married. I wanted to run away. I moved out but I was shattered.
I couldn’t think of anything else so I gave myself sometime and decided to take a trip across Karnataka. Surprisingly, it brought back the peace within me. Since then, I started to chase my dream to become a travel journalist while balancing my work life and masters.
Presently, I’ve travelled to 16 States and 3 Union Territories. Right now, I’m in Jodhpur, on a 68 days long backpacking trip across Rajasthan, Punjab and Chandigarh. I’m very blessed to find my love in traveling. I still struggle with all that has happened in my past but I’m on the road towards being better. I also educate others to talk about their mental health.
I learnt the hard way that if you keep yourself closed up to new experiences, you might end up missing out on some of the best things that life has in store for you.’ said Shalini Magdel Das